Monday, April 30, 2012

Me Men Meeting


Me and men meet well. I am a feminine woman with many delicate attributes. I am a petite person with small bone structure and I am rather shorter than statistically the average person. I like my feminine ways, soft heart, poetic reading, fashion flare. I am also a lover of jewels of many kinds and have array of different fabrics and feelings. I have a rather girlie cheery voice.

HOWEVER, I like to shoot guns, watch fighting, I come alive in emergency situations. I adore professional meetings with either gender discussions at hand, focused. I like the sports of contact. I like to learn about all kinds of people, places and things. Some of the time things I care to learn about could be categorized as a “man thing”. My husband works as a Fireman with 14 men. When I have visited in the past there was a sense people would not show their true face due to my gender and respect to Steve. As the years have gone by words “slip” the joking is real and my gender is no longer obviously noticed at least. I have crossed the line and now I am part of the “brothers”. Like a Fire-woman would have to be. I like to be treated like a woman and love the chance to role with the punches too.

In the glove and flesh I was born into sometimes it is hard to be voiced and seen for things I really have to say. A woman I have come across on twitter described it perfectly on a writing piece she wrote: It is regarding being mis-understood.

I really enjoyed the movie Moneyball with Brad Pitt,: . I admired the no nonsense direction in the movie too. It was focused on statistics (I fancy numbers) building a team, obtaining a goal. There are no scenes or close to no scenes that I can remember with any women in it. I favor how a lot of men meet and do not beat around the bush and discuss out ideas and solve problems. I seem to get a long with men very well and it is not what the main stream world would think as to why. I like to get to the issue and topic at hand. Women can do this too and incorporate great ideas in an integrated group, character etc.. I have had the fortunate experience of that in the past and it is in men leadership that have taken part in encouraging me to roar. In my career history it is the men managers that have taught me well and an admirable woman too.

Women have the make-up of our female bodies which should not be an issue in tackling, tasks working business obstacles but it can be and is a reality. My eyes were raised on a news air that came over the public wire not to long ago. It was regarding a woman by the name of Debrahlee Lorenzana here is the link to the article: I have mixed opinions on this subject matter. She was fired for being too sexy. I know from study and being married to a man that men tend to be more visual. Mrs/Ms Lorenzana is a voluptuous sexy woman who was playing with the big bank dogs. If you are going to be in such an environment you are going to have to work even harder to be taken seriously. It is the fact of life. We are flesh and blood humans with scientific physical, emotional responses. However, we are more than just animals we are human beings continuously renew your thinking and mind. I have to.

I respect how the military has covered cookie cut uniforms. I understand why schools in demographic areas that have been gang related wear uniforms. It all makes sesne to me. Some of the outfits Debrahlee Lorenzana wore are perfectly covered  others really formed to a flattering eye. I am not attracted to my side but even I would have my eyes widen as if to say that is round and sticks out there and there. Funny for me it would be like putting a straight line with three circles in different places you don't notice the straight line but bump then round, round, round or viewing a graph at a glace and you notice the raise in what is high on the graph, peak, peak, peak. Sometimes I think geometrically:). I don't know Mrs./Ms Lorenzana.I hope she careers and personalizes beneficially for her own life and goals. It is a shame, if she was fired for her looks. I do wish her blessings on her endeavors.

I meet with men well but don't just look at just the shell. One may sound like a mouse but have a spirit bigger than a house. :)

Men, Me and Meetings

Adriana Johnson

Thursday, April 19, 2012

So Now What?

April 19, 2012, 1:37 PM MST
Tempe, Arizona, United States of America

So Now What?

I volunteer at the Phoenix Zoo and this past Monday I was observing insects while I was reading my informational book. There was a large beautiful moth that landed near me as I was reading. There was cotton all around me like snow. We call it snow in the desert when the cotton wood trees blossom. As I continued to read for a little bit my book slipped. The moth scurried up in the air and a big black bird grabbed it. Then another bird flew near by and they both engaged in fighting for the moth.

I thought about how nothing happens by chance; but we all have our own free will to make choices that alters our journey. A lot of great joys, heartaches, choices, things happened to me out of my control, a book slipping so to write. These twists and turns of life have put me where I am at in my life right now writing at my dinning room table. I am the woman at the zoo that is looking at the past with shocked eyes saying so now what the bug has been eaten, the fight happened, others have been fed so now what season must I go to? I suffered Postpartum Depression and Anxiety intensely over two years ago, I lost a co-worker to cancer two jobs ago who prayed I would get pregnant and I never told him I got pregnant before he died. Here was his blog: .My Mom's friend a dear friend of the family was dieing in the same hospital I was giving birth at. I did not say good by, her blue hand made blanket for my son sits in my house; and I regret not visiting her in the town she resided in close to me when she was still alive. My husband and I had problems getting pregnant for three years. We now have a gorgeous two year old son.

I went at physical fitness with force had knee surgery, broke a toe and will continue to exercise as part of my life. I have been fired from a job and had problems getting back into the work force. I have helped people get jobs, encouraged people who have moved on and carried on and I am grateful for friends and family. In that I am still left feeling like the cotton in the wind so now what? Where will the Roar, Whisper of the wind go? I have been picked and plucked out of the cotton wood tree. So now what? I went through a heart wrenching, soul tattering 15 week bible study that had me metaphorically sweating more than any triathlon would have given me. I got in the boxing ring with my demons, many of them. I just got through with the study Mending the Soul by Steven R. Tracy. It was the most necessary boot camp in my life and I highly recommend it. However, I am left tattered and open and vulnerable asking so now what? I feel like possibly a soldier may experience after coming home from combat. So now what?

I feel like how they portray the prisoner in Shawshank Redemption who spent most of his life in prison and did not know how to assimilate to being outside of prison walls. He seemed to ask So now what? In the scene he unfortunately made a drastic decision to end it. That is not where I am at and pray if you are reading this and you are reach out and get help; but I still ask so now what God? , Life. I have gotten excited and announced jobs, situations prayers etc to have had the rug pulled out under me. I am trying to learn more wisdom, more quiet thought and the whisper character of being a little more reserved. I am not ashamed of me and my bubbly self but I want to always work on what kind of vessel I am being. I am at a crossroads, to work to not work and how?. I stare at my sons beautiful face and say, so now what, how can I? Should I?. I have grown more attached to him in this season of not working. It is only a question I can answer. I connected on social network last year to air hurts, anger and did not expect it, but have connected with a wonderful ministry and have found some dear friends. They are all a delight along w my other close friends. Everybody has their families and goals and I have to create my own goals. The point is I know God is there no matter what in the so now what? I will try and tread softly investigate, move, live and experience the voyage and try to be full of God's truth and it is perfectly human to say so now what Lord?

In your voyage during crossroads may you find discernment if you ask so now what? Know there will be an answer and keep on keeping on! Don't give up the fight. I am not. Don't live in regret or completely in the hurt turn it into God's workmanship and carry on. There are new season's ahead.

The Lord Says, “I will make you wise and show you where to go.” Psalm 32:8

Adriana Villafane-Johnson
Tempe, Arizona United States of America

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Blame, Shame, Flame

April 4th, 5:19 PM
United States America, Tempe, Arizona

Blame, Shame, Flame

I have been going through a soul search of healing. Opening the curtain of my past, the blame, the shame the dark spots of should not haves by me, by others. Deeply by others. In doing so I have had the great privilege of many sparkles of light entering in my life in the forms of friends and family. These shades of light have been bright and have had their own hold into this journey of mine. They have walked me to the dark waters edge, they have warned me of a title wave, they have directed me. They have held my hand and gotten into the water. They have lifted me into the boat. They have handed me the oar and said “you got this, keep going!” They have lifted me out of the vessel and on dry land to the island I had to go to. Then they walked, ran with me through the jungle saying “you are true you are you! and you got this!”. Then I arrived at the mountain I was to climb up. They roared and whispered “you will overcome”. Off I went and I hiked it. I had to hike it alone. I looked into my past. Similar to a part in the movie of October Baby different people in different angles held my hand understood I had to do this. I had to look I had to find out who was that, what? Who? is actually the dragon of bad thoughts. I climbed the mountain I made it to the top. It happened ….I FORGAVE. I let go of the shame, the blame and stepped into Gods flame. There is a whole valley below of not knowing but that is ok I am going to be great in the twists and turns, downs, lows and highs. I am Adriana Villafane-Johnson and I am an apple in the creators eyes and I SUPERsize that truth in my heart, soul, head, DAILY. I will have bad days but I will get back up and I know the rock is solid truth. Watch out source of lies Adriana-Villafane-Johnson has turned into a fighter and taken her past and turned it into a blast of fire on her sword. The sword of truth, it cleans you out like a toxic health cleanse. The shadows will always be there but I am gaining the tools to fight when needed and called. To you I thank , I thank that is right YOU. To you I lift your chin up. To you I encourage you too, you can do this you are_______________________________. Move you got this and don't let go don't give up the good fight. Climb that mountain, soar on wings high, swim that lake, build that ditch, cook that meal, go to the fight the good fight you are Gods delight. You know what is right and you will know what it is in your life. Dig into your soul and know you can move forward. Pick up the glass pieces and put them back together and it just might look different but more beautiful and full.

Forgiveness: To give up or let go: relinquish (The sword cut what was held)

God's Flame:
Exodus 3:2 And the angel of the Lord appeared to him in a blazing fire from the midst of a bush; and the he looked, and behold, the bush was burning with fire, yet the bush was not consumed.

His fire burns for you and it will never go out it will never be consumed. Can you feel it?

Adriana Villafane-Johnson

Third Day lyrics from the song I CAN FEEL IT

I seek the silence through the chaos and the noise
That's when I'm listening; I want to hear Your voice
Sometimes it softly speaks, a whisper on the wind
Sometimes it's louder when Your Spirit rushes in

I can feel it all around me
I can feel it all around me

I keep on searching for Your presence in this place
I see your hand at work, I feel Your touch of grace
Sometimes it falls like rain upon this thirsty land
Sometimes You gently stir the heart of every man

I can feel it
I can feel it
I can feel Your heartbeat

I pray You'd send Your presence down,
send it down
Fill us with Your Spirit now

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Tweet Emotion?

March 25th, 2012 finished 5:48 PM Mountain Standard Time


I like the song from Aerosmith, Sweet Emotion. I like the rhythm I like how I feel when I hear it. Emotions can be sweet. When I hear songs I like sometimes my body rolls like an S and I feel like saying 'sweet emotion'. I picture a scene in the movie 300 when they went to the Oracle and the Oracle was prophetic. I picture the angel/ghost figure in Eminem's and Dr. Dre's video I Need a Dr.. Emotion is a strong word it can be a strong experience. I undergo many of them, in church they come out to the song and beat.

Emotion according to Wikipedia is - “a complex psychophysiological experience of an individual's state of mind as interacting with biochemical (internal) and environmental (external) influences.

Emotions can have one rolling up and down hills in your voyage in my voyage. Especially if you let them ride your life and take control. Emotions are not bad they just are, however how you react out to them does influence you and others. They should be monitored, like your money, like your goals. Monitor yourself. I value the study of animals for many reasons. I like how David Eckman explains it in his study: Holy Spirit and Emotion: 'Animals are a whimsical poetic expression of Gods artistry; we are expressions of his nature.'

I admire the art and sport of fighting because it is a controlled way to let strong emotion out. Physical fitness is another way to do so and it is also healthy. Getting out doors, chores, freedom of expression. Yes! I am on board but please watch how you step. I know I have too.

It is ok to be you in how you were created but watch what you say and how you say it. Shall I dance like an S in a Corporate Board meeting? In an interview? Should I laugh loudly during a teachers talk he or she put much time and emphasis on? Should I speak irritations to someone I don't know well then possibly offend them? Watch how you express yourself and the behavior that comes out from it. It does matter.

You like to dance, dance, you like to tweet, tweet, you like to hit, hit, write, write, preach, preach, create, create etc. However, just observe how. Work and live in “sound “ mind. = hygiaino meaning wholesome or healthy.

I tweet a lot of emotion I must remember to put on the lotion of God's potion and his words so that I am representing what is true what is noble and what is right. I want myself and how I write to be pointed to Gods light. That does not mean I should walk in only a square box. God is not in a box and created all the different colors. I may fall but I will keep picking up the good shall and watch the brawl in the proper hall. There is much to be said in the bible about emotion. It is worth a read. A couple of scriptures from the good book are below. I hope you look and you just might get hooked.:).

Ephesians Chapters 4 vs 29 through 32: 'When you talk, do not say harmful things, but say what people need—words that will help others become stronger. Then what you say will do good to those who listen to you. And do not make the Holy Spirit sad. The Spirit is God's proof that you belong to him. God gave you the Spirit to show that God will make you free when the final day comes. Do not be bitter or angry or mad. Never shout angrily or say things to hurt others. Never do anything evil. Be kind and loving to each other, and forgive each other just as God forgave you in Christ.

Romans Chapter 8 vs 22 through 25: 'We know that everything God made has been waiting until now in the pain, like a woman ready to give birth. Not only the world, but we also have been waiting with pain inside us. We have the Spirit as the first part of God's promise. So we are waiting for God to finish making us his own children, which means our bodies will be made free. We were saved, and we have this hope. If we see what we are waiting for, that is not really hope. People do not hope for something they already have. But we are hoping for something we do not have yet, and we are waiting for it patiently.

With empathy, honesty and a “sound” mind:)
Adriana Villafane-Johnson
Tempe, Arizona United States of America

Sunday, March 11, 2012


Sunday March 11, 2012, Tempe Arizona United States of America Pacific time 4:11 PM.

Diamonds are a beautiful jewel. They are my favorite jewel. They are precious in the worlds eyes too. They are smuggled, blood is shed over them, they are fought over, adorned. They are a symbol of promise, show status and a dazzle of glitz and flare. According to Amanda Oscinberg in an Ezine Article "The strength of the precious stone comes from the way its atoms have been built up. Each O Atom in a diamond links with 3 others and the connection lengths and corners are always equal."

In parallel finding God's truth is like finding the good in people. Finding their diamond truth, the hidden jewel in them. We mix up the issue, fight for it, bleed over it, hurt each other with it. However it is much easier than people think it is. To make the diamond it takes other matter. To take out our own diamonds it takes everybody helping each other, pressuring out the bad and brilliantly exposing the good. Remember to take heart to those around you. He/She may be part of your diamond process and bring out value to your life. Don't discard what you think is trash for someday you might need that 'trash' to help you light up. We are all diamonds being broken, pressured, processed, building ourselves up into a masterpiece in the journey of life. Lift your chin up and smile at the diamond you are and or can be that is inside of you. Keep fighting for what is right in God's light. It is about the voyage in life. Decide what road you are going to take. You will fall down and you probably have many times, I have, but get back up and keep conducting yourselves into that wonderful material.

Daniel 2 verse 22
God reveals deep and hidden things. He knows what is in the darkness and the light dwells with him.

Let God's light dwell in you.

With Compassion and Sincerity to the world:
Adriana Johnson

Monday, February 27, 2012

The Guest

1:17 AM MST February 27th, 2012 Monday. Tempe (Phoenix Valley), Arizona, United States of America
I had a visiter last week. A guest in my home, a new friend. I tried my best to prepare for her. It is hard with a busy schedule a two year old, a husband, time for me etc. I want to set things how I want them in my head and heart for guests. My parents came for a visit two days after her visit. My Mom is very sensitive to allergens, like I am. I dusted and cleaned. As I was cleaning I thought how do we prepare for guests, friends and family? I try to honor my loved ones by being prepared. Showing them with my acts of service that they are loved and seen that I pay attention if they are glutton intolerant or have allergies. I pray for peace when they visit. Like in the Movie Forrest Gump Jenny rested deeply at his house after such a long journey of many choices. When someone arrives, when a party begins let my home be blessed for them as a place to celebrate, enjoy life, be at peace . I love giving parties. I love people. I love having guests. I use my fine China it does not collect dust and use paper plates if you don't like fine China:).

How do you prepare your hearts, soul and mind for the ultimate guest? How do you clean out the cobwebs the dust mites? You or I will never be perfect but the journey matters, how you serve, how you live. In everthing there is balance do not be overboard, underboard that is too much or too little board :); and be anxious about nothing. Try, you matter you are seen. How you live matters and does affect other people. Clean your soul you cannot get every dust mite but you may be able to prevent an allergy attack on yourself, a relative, a friend, a stranger. Metaphorically and literally you can prevent an attack or a bad way how things can/could go. He meets you right where you are at and he also prepared well for you through others. He loved you and knew you before you were born.

You did not call that person? Call that person.  You stole that money? Give it back.  You are 80 you wish you had....Stop and move in the way you can how you can. You can start at 8 at 90 play cards with the lonely, SMILE it matters. You end up feeling smiles back. You will know what it is you will feel the nudge. Move, act, write, hit, live...

John The Baptist Preaches
Matthew Chapter 3 verses 1 through 3.

NOW in those days John the Baptist came, preaching in the wilderness of Judea, saying "Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand," For this is the one referred to by Isaiah the prophet, saying, "The VOICE OF ONE CRYING IN THE WILDERNESS, MAKE READY THE WAY OF THE LORD, MAKE HIS PATHS STRAIGHT!"

-Adriana Johnson

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Time in The Office

Today is the first day of my blog Tuesday February 21, 2012 4:00 PM Mountain Time Zone, Tempe, Arizona United States of America

I am excited to dive into blogging and writing. Today is my first time spent in the Starbucks 'office' in a few days. I had to change my 'office' the other one has quite the college crowd and a very busy one. No chairs were av,ailable. The gracious Starbucks employees recommended a great location for me. I catch up on phone calls, make appointments, check twitter, email and facebook during my 'office' time which is also spent at home. I believe it is important to have your own time away for your personal office time. Wether that is in your home office or at a favorite coffee shop etc. I am a stay at home Mom of a two year old and sometimes we need to change the scene up to feel more accomplished, to change the atomosphere, be around adults etc. I am quite the people watcher ,in disguise, I can hear and see with out hearing and seeing. I would say it is an observance of many senses but paying attention and eyes locked on my own computer. I don't always catch everything. It is not my main purpose at my 'office' it is to spend time officing the senses just happen. Sometimes an action, a thought, a movement, a conversation will remind me of an item, topic to inspire me to write of matters of the heart or mind, ideas and or questions. People motivate me regardles if it is something that upsets me or enlightens me.

We all have busy lives remember to stay balanced, catch up on your office time and stay connected to the things that give you passion. Roar and Whisper in how you do life and remember to do it with Strength and Grace.

Adriana Johnson